jaclyn noelle

disgusting. Differing opinions. I suck. Losing people sucks.

arj:

Today at 3:24am

its true.

and now i feel like a complete asshole.

i dont think i made the assesment that you were uglier unkempt.
but maybe you looked better kempt.
just the hair probably, hats all i remeber.

well this didnt turn out well, perhaps another time then.
or never, if thas how insulted youa re.

i’ll respect your decision.

that painting is not dissimilar from me.

im sorry i said anything ata ll, i think i thought too much of your wanting to talk to me on my drive home, and my need to help usualy caused me to do thigns tha are rude, but i feel that it is more important to help someone if that may be the case than to be nice or liked or have a friend, other people are more important to be happy than myself.
in highschool, i woulda lways try to get my friends to not drink, and when they didnt stop i stopped being their friends, in the hopes that they would see that and change their minds, and know it was bad, but i just ended up losing all of my friends.

Allison Jonessmithford

Today at 3:35am

I would think someone who has OCD might understand “addiction”.

Anyway.

It doesn’t matter to me.

I hate poeple that assume I care about them more then I actually do. Especially if the instigate it.

Sorry I even began to think that we could be friends. If you think I’m obessive, I’m not. I just have a personality disorder, which makes me INCAPABLE of understanding the way you just acted out.

So I guess I’m never supposed to talk to you again.

Sorry I bothered you in the first place. Sorry I was an annoyance. Just, sorry in general, sorry you lost your friends.

If they are like me, I bet they are sorry for being drunks.

But then again, I’m not a bad drunk. I’m actually more in touch when I’m drunk. It helps me paint.

So you don’t get it. And you hate me now. And you think I have a problem when I really don’t which really does make you ignorant of the fact because you’ve never even done it in the first place so how could you know?

Bye. Forever.

And if I see you after this it’ll be embarrassing but I won’t care. Because I don’t know how to. Bye.

Allison Jonessmithford

Today at 3:35am

they*

Allison Jonessmithford

Today at 3:48am

oh and if you “know it’s bad” then you know you’re being a jerk for being completely un-understanding as a “friend”.

And I hope you feel dumb for doing 25 pushups a night making 50 over two nights and thats exasperating sort of, so I hope your arms hurt because of me and my stupid email WHICH JUST PROVES

That I am more influential to you then you could EVER be to me. Because I didn’t want to spin. And MY OWN THOUGHTS controlled my decision.

whoa. hang out with me. im me. give me advice.